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December 7th, 2009

A Place called Pearl

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Instead of writing about my day yesterday (I will make note of that on another entry), I would like to talk a bit about the significance of today, December 7, 2009. It is the 68th anniversary of the attack on Pearl Harbor. It is significant to me because it was significant to my Dad who was there that infamous day.

Here, in honor of my Dad is his account (abbreviated) of that day in his own words:

"Sunday, December 7, 1941 started with a BANG! In fact several of them. We were awakened by several loud noises and the sounds of planes flying around. We thought that the Air Force was holding maneuvers on Sunday morning and you can imagine the language we used for their ears. But, instead of the Air Force, we were visited by the Shore Patrol and were told that Pearl was being attacked and we should return to our ships.

My friends and I got into a car and drove back to Pearl with the Japanese pilots firing real bullets at us on the road! Sure didn't take long to get to the base where we were greeted with the sights and sounds of a war starting. And talked about scared, I sure did ruin a good pair of underwear. Got back to the ship without getting hit and thanked the good Lord for a very large favor. I was immediately assigned to a motor launch as part of a Fire and Rescue team and sent to pick up survivors, good white uniform and all. Didn't have time to change but that uniform could be replaced and some of those survivors in the water needed help NOW!

As we headed for battleship row, I saw the largest, hottest, smokiest fire I have ever seen. And that is where we were headed. The water was full of men who had been blown or had jumped in and were doing the best to save themselves. Most of them were burned so badly that there was small chance they would survive and these were the ones we were sent to rescue first. It was very difficult getting them into the launch but with a lot of main strength and awkwardness and a lot of luck, we did manage it.

We could take 10 or 12 at a time to the landing in the Navy Yard where medics and nurses were waiting. We would unload and return for another batch. Sometimes we were too late, so we left them in the water and found someone who was still alive. There must have been fifteen or twenty crews like ours and we worked five or six hours rescuing the wounded and taking them to the safety of the nurses and the medics."

Note: I have skipped some of the entry.

"When all the men in the water had been rescued and no more could be found, we got a chance to look around us a little. We had been so busy we had no chance to know what had gone on. Of course we heard and saw the U.S.S. Arizona explode and sink where she was. And we did see the U.S.S. Oklahoma slowly but surely roll over exposing her bottom and trapping some men inside. Later in the week, I was in the rescue party that cut a hole in her bottom and rescued a few survivors. The rest of the battle ships were sunk in place by torpedoes and bomb hits and all the topsides of them were badly burned by the gigantic fire which was fed by the fuel oil blasted out of the ships as they were hit. This fuel oil was very thick and floated on top of the water where it burned with a hot, smokey fury. Many of the men we rescued were burned horribly by this fire and I am sure many of them died as a result. I have never seen anything so terrible before, have not since and sincerely hope to never see it again.

Note: My Dad had a very precise and long entry in his journal about that day and the days following the attack. Later on, because he was certified as a diver, he was sent to many of the ships to try and rescue men trapped inside the hulls of the ships. He was a part of rescuing twenty to thirty men that were trapped. And after diving for many days in recovery efforts and salvage operations he then was part of a burial detail at the military cemetery in Pearl.

"It was a beautiful place if you could forget what you were there for. But, we were there to conduct services and bury the remains. The work load was so large that we had a sort of production line set up. It operated with all respect but got the job done speedily. A long trench would be dug with a ditching machine and we would go down it with the caskets, the remains, brass id tags, three chaplains, a yeoman and two or three men to place the remains in the casket. The casket would be sealed, the yeoman would read a name from his list, the appropriate brass tag would be placed on the casket, the proper chaplain (Jewish, Catholic or Protestant) would give a short prayer and the casket lowered into the grave. We would move on down the ditch, leaving a six foot space and prepare to place another casket. When we finished for the day, we all stood at attention, while a firing squad fired a twenty one gun salute, and the bugler played taps. (note: skips) I guess I worked at this sad assignment until word came I was to proceed to the docks for my next assignment."

So I remember this day and honor my Dad...

December 5th, 2009

For the Birds

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Another extremely cold morning (24 degrees right now.) My joints want to live in a tropical climate they keep reminding me. Parts of the house are really cold as we are trying not to heat the whole house and just the "living in" rooms. We have never had a heat source in our basement where our bedrooms are (Nate's and ours) or air conditioning either for that matter. Because it is in the basement, the insulation in this old house is better than upstairs and tends to stay a more even temp. A space heater and in the summer, a fan is all we have ever used. I got Nate that down comforter on black Friday and he really likes it, nice and warm as his joints don't like the cold any more than mine do.

Yesterday, since the bird feeder was full of snow, Cec put the bird seed on a tray in the yard (on the ground.) Last night, I found where Chang had upchucked (same as vomited) a whole bunch of bird seed in the living room. Must have been most of what Cecil had put out for the birds. Who would'a guessed that he would have scarfed down all of the bird seed? Well, me for one. I know that puppies are dogs and dogs will eat most anything if it even resembles food. They have far fewer taste buds than we do and most anything resembles food, especially to a young dog who doesn't know he is not a bird. Cec seems to think that if he throws something on the ground for the birds that only the birds will eat it and the dogs will guess that it is not for them. Wrong. Guess who cleaned up the upchucked bird seed too?

I shouldn't complain. Cec did make a really nice dinner of baked squash, peppers, celery, onions and tomatoes topped with cheese last night and a side of brussels sprouts which he steamed and then sauteed. Yum! Plus, he has been very busy and diligent in the studio churning out some new stuff for the show tomorrow. So what's a little (well, a lot) of birdseed on the carpet? No biggie but I hope he learns that dogs and food on the ground (including but not limited to watermelon rinds, leftovers from Thanksgiving, and piles of birdseed) are not compatible unless you want a puppy sick in your house.

Today are last minute things to do to get ready for the show tomorrow. We still have stuff in the truck that need to come into the house that are for the outdoor shows. Our setup is much easier without having to put up a tent!

I am also hoping that it won't be so cold tomorrow (it is supposed to warm up) as I have to leave the dogs outside and we won't be getting home until after dark. They are dogs! But they are shorthair dogs and used to being in the house when the weather is cold. They may have to suffer a bit but I don't think it will kill them. Leaving Chang in the house (no problem with Yogi) is an 'iffy' proposition tho as he may get into stuff (in fact, I know he will) that he shouldn't or eat my shoes or sumpin'. He isn't old enough yet to be trusted alone to his own devices. He is really a good boy but still, he is young and foolish.

Need to make some earrings and price some stuff still but it is still dark and before I get to work, I want to go for a walk. Skipped the walking yesterday because of the weather and I miss it when I don't go and so do my 'boys.'

The part still hadn't arrived for the computer and by the time I get them back or up and running, I will really be ready! Even tho I sit here in pain, I am running off at the mouth because I miss writing! Suffer for your art, or so 'they' say.

December 4th, 2009

Frozen

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It snowed again last night but with everything still wet from the last snow, the world here is frozen this morning. Right now it is 25 degrees and the roads are full of black ice. Not going anywhere soon as it is not expected to get above freezing until after noon. Ruidoso got down to 7 degrees last night. Burrrrr!

I just hope my geraniums survive this. Not sure that will happen.

No computer probably until next week as we can't go anywhere today and have the show this weekend and there is stuff I need to do. The power cable is down in the lower valley and far out of reach right now.

The dogs weren't too happy about going out today and their stay was brief. They are just glad to be back in their beds.

December 3rd, 2009

Seeds of change

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I probably should stay away from computers! Last night late, the new laptop arrived and when I tried to connect to the router somehow I managed to eliminate the icon for the router at the bottom of the task bar on the desktop (don't ask me how) and now am dumbfounded (emphasis on the dumb) as to what I did or how to get it back. I guess I will figure it out, eventually but it makes me feel stupid (computers have a way of doing that to me.)

And I need to get a power cable for it as it is strictly running on the battery (which I used most of trying to connect to the router) because the cable I had for the other computer is at the repair shop with it. (We took that in a long time ago to see if it could be fixed. Of course, a part had to be ordered...yadda, yadda, yadda.) So now I need to go get a power cord or wait for the other one. Eventually possibly, Cecil and I may both have a laptop which would be fantastic but not soon, it seems.

All of this may need to wait until next week because we have a show this weekend at Ardovino's and I really need to get in the studio and do some work. Plus the other dog, Yogi needs to go to the vet today to get some blood work done so I can get his pain meds renewed. No more medication without the blood work and he needs it as his hips are really painful, poor boy. I can relate. He needs to get a job tho. Both of the dogs do and Nate too. Heck with them hanging around here sluffin' offa us. Bums!

I am a bit worried (I guess I always worry about our income) and it is hard to trust that things will turn out (as they should.) This economy is affecting people who normally buy art and geegaws which has shown up in the big shows we have done this year. Same with eBay too. No one is buying like they did last year. And it seems that there have been more than the usual unexpected expenses as well. Worrying doesn't help. In fact, I wish I could stop it as it affects me physically but it is what it is. Lots of folks are in the same boat, many worse off as they don't have shelter or food and we have plenty of that. We are lucky in so many ways and I just need to focus on that and not the other (down) side... Since many of the people I know rely on selling what they make with their hands, I know we are not the only ones worrying. I hear it all the time from the other vendors.

Last year was a really good year for us but this one is a whole different story. I keep really good monthly records so I know, I can compare. Just hope that it picks up at these last two shows. We work really hard at what we do, make sure we have a quality product but the costs of our materials have gone through the roof and without the resulting payback. (Silver alone is twice what I paid for it last year.) Spend more to make less is what has happened. Like I said, this is true for all my friends who do this for a living. At least I can get it out of my system here and hope that things pick up for us next year. That's all I can do and to stop worrying because that certainly doesn't help. (Easier said than done!)

More snow is predicted tonight. More snow than we have had for a few years but it means that we may have beautiful poppies on the Franklins in the spring!

December 2nd, 2009

Foggy

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Cec stayed upstairs last night waiting for the UPS but no show. And today is Nate day so we have to go out for him and for groceries. I hope they don't come while we are gone because we have to sign for the computer when it arrives.

After showing up at the clinic yesterday for Cecil's appointment, we were told that it had been changed yet again (fourth time!) Would have been nice if they let us know ahead of time before we made the trek down there. Even the gal at the reception desk was amazed that they changed it so many times. Seems Cecils' internist has graduated and is moving on so next time, a new guy to break in. I hope he has a sense of humor.

The snow is mostly gone now and there is dense fog this morning (pea soup style.) But that will burn off when the sun shows up.

My mood has not been so great lately but that could be due to my aches and the fact that I am still without computer. I hope it comes today as doing my business here is difficult.

December 1st, 2009

Snow

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Whoa, the ground is covered with snow this morning! It snowed on and off (and rained) all day yesterday and this morning we have snow on the ground.

Sunday Mary and I took the dogs up to the new park near Bassett Middle School for a walk. This is a new park and really cool. (They even have an area made just for skateboarders and the plantings in the park are all desert landscaping.) Anyway, that evening Chang (my pit puppy) got really sick, vomiting about 5 or 6 times. I was really worried about him but after his stomach emptied, he seemed a bit better. Poor guy, it was cold and wet out and I kept taking him out because he was getting sick. He was cold and shaking.

When I got up (really early) to let the dogs out and get my coffee, Chang's face was really swollen. He couldn't even open his eyes all the way and his muzzle was twice it's normal size. Yogi has had the same reaction once when something bit him so I figured the same must'a happened to Chang on our walk. So a trip to the vet for emergency care, a steroid shot and now he is on Benedryl but the swelling has mostly gone down and he is feeling much better.

Cec is supposed to see one of his doctors today so I hope the roads are clear by then because people in this town can't drive on snowy roads. Heck, they have a hard time driving on wet roads.

It is really beautiful with the snow but my body doesn't care for this weather, that's for sure.

The laptop is due to arrive today! Yea! I miss my computer...

November 28th, 2009

The Day After

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Turkey day was "off the hook" as number one would say. We had a really nice time with Mary and Lucy joining us for dinner. Plus, Mary brought me a little bottle of Hennessy cognac which is my very favorite (didn't crack into it yet tho) as Lucy brought a nice bottle of Shiraz for dinner. All that cooking for two days gave me a pain. My back is totally out now so I told Cec, Christmas dinner is on him. I enjoyed cooking and the food was wonderful but I have a hard time standing for so long without paying for it later. I paid yesterday.

We did go out for a bit in the morning on black Friday as I saw some down comforters that I wanted to get for Nate at Kohl's. Had never been there before but those were only on sale for that one day. All they had left was twin size but that was what he needed and it gets really cold because no heater in the basement. Nate has a hard time regulating his temp so it was a good buy at $30. (Nate wears sweat suits even in the summer under the air conditioner.) The lines were crazy tho but they seemed very organized and it moved quite quickly. But shopping on the day after T-Day is not recommended if you can help it! By the time we got home, I could barely walk but Nate will be warm and comfy at least.

I wanted to put up Nate's tree this weekend but my back may not let me. We have shows coming up the two weekends after this one and I will be crazy busy getting ready for them. I am always so ready for a break after the show season. Those of you that do this full time know what I mean. I always "think" I will get a bunch of catching up done, learn some new techniques or something but all I want to do is rest, read, sleep and sleep some more. Not if I am smart.

Can hardly wait for the computer to arrive. That will help bunches as sitting here is not helpful.

Have a restful weekend and enjoy your leftovers.

November 26th, 2009

Hey, Thanks!

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I have much to be thankful for. Yesterday, I found out that number one son Noah has sent me a laptop (recycled) which should be arriving on Tuesday! Thank you so much Noah!!! That is awesome as I am pretty lost without my computer and the ease of its' use. This computer of Cecil's is hard to work on but I am missing my journal-ing and without my daily blog, I get kinda weirded out. This is therapy for me, as I have said many times and I need to write.

Las Artistas was a mixed bag for us. Saturday was fantastic. So much so that I went home and made some more stuff to fill empty spaces for Sunday. But Sunday was very slow, very and I needn't have bothered. All of our "big" shows have been off this year which I guess is a sign of the times.

Today is Thanksgiving which always means family to me. I am sorry that all of my family can't be here to share in the goodies but I hope that they have a bountiful and wonderful day. I would love to have Noah and Jenni here, my brother and sis, and my Mom. But I think we will have a great time with our dear Mary and my friend Lucy who will be joining us for a really big bird and all the fixin's.

When I say big bird, I ain't talking Sesame Street. That sucker was the most close to a mid-sized bird we could find. All of the 15 lb-ers were no where to be found (we looked!) so we ended up with a 19+ pounder. Cec put him into the brine (apple cider, spices, oranges, etc.) yesterday in some plastic garbage bags and we stuffed him into the fridge (no easy task) to simmer in the sauce.

Thanksgiving menu for the Lees (besides the big ass bird) are green chile cornbread stuffing (my favorite recipe for years), sweet potato casserole topped with pecans, mashed yukon yellow gold taters (wish we had a ricer...makes better mash), "graven" (Nate's word for gravy), green bean casserole (yeah, the kind with mushroom soup and fried onions on top), my homemade cranberry sauce (with orange juice and a bit of spice), whole wheat rolls, Watergate salad (pistachio puddin' with pineapple!), brussel sprouts and a nice red wine.

Yesterday I made the Watergate salad and the cranberry sauce and three pies. For dessert, a chocolate cream pie (Nate's favorite and a requirement), a sweet potato pie, and I tried a new recipe for a pecan and dark chocolate pie (Devilish Pecan Pie) that turned out great. If it tastes as good as it looks, we are in heaven!

All of the recipes are low glycemic for my diabetes and healthy for Cec too. And I guarantee no one will notice the difference.

At least we will have enough left-overs to spread around and to hold us over the weekend. Plus, I got the ingredients for turkey sopa for some of that big bird and I still have pomegranates for some pico de gallo.

So, I am giving thanks for the bounty we are sharing, for my beautiful family (and their generousity) for my health (much better this year!) and for my wonderful friends. Have a great Thanksgiving all!

November 15th, 2009

So Long, goodbye

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This may be my last post for a long while. My laptop screen is completely dark and will not come on at all. I cannot write comfortably at Cecil's computer nor sit comfortably. Only been here a few minutes and already, my back is hurting. My wrists are cocked at an odd angle too and that hurts. And this computer is incredibly slooooowwww and takes forever to do anything (but Cec has been dealing with that a long time.)

That pretty much puts me in a quandry. I just replaced the hard drive in the laptop, Do I sink more money into it or call it a wash? Truth is, if I was to replace it at all, I could only afford whatever is cheapest and I really can't afford that right now. Too many other things are pending, like tooth surgery and important stuff like that. And we were hoping to upgrade to a better computer for Cecil first as he does his eBay, his photo printing and other important business on it. If I have to, I can go back to doing mine, minimally, here but it is a pain, literally.

And besides, does one want the cheapest laptop out there? Not really. I need some time to think about it. Other things need doing first right now.

To top it all off, yesterday (while the laptop was working) I spent a lot of time on Photobucket organizing all my pictures into files. All the Ruidoso pix are in a "Ruidoso" file, etc. I did not realize (big computer dummy!) that by moving pictures to new files broke all the links to places I had posted them. That, my friends, means that all the pictures I had posted here, on the Dispatch From Phar Lepht, on SooZen's Etsy, on Studio Eight, wherever, were gone and showed the dreaded "picture has been removed or deleted" sign. That was a lot of pictures and some of them I have no idea what I actually posted as I didn't write a description. I have gone back and tried to replace some of the most recent but to do them all would take more time and energy and patience than I have right now.

In fact, I have no patience right now. Last night I was pissed, today I am just sad. Sad and tired and hurting... Hard to give myself a pep talk when I just wanna cry. Not having my journal or a lit site for writing as an outlet will make me crazy. Maybe literally. No therapy on the pages for a while. And who really wants to hear all this stuff I write in a real conversation? I guess I could go back to writing on paper, I may have to for "who knows" how long.

I have to quit now. Enough belly aching. Enough aching, period. See yous, when I SEE yous. I will probably check my email once a day from this computer but that is about it, for now.

November 14th, 2009

We are now the proud owners (well, semi-proud) of a new microwave. Nathan is happy as a clam because now he can get back to his regular menu of reheating his left-overs. It is a simple little machine that surely won't last as long as the old one did but that is the way they make stuff nowadays, isn't it?

I am having some really disconcerting problem with my laptop now. If I leave it on for any length of time, after the screen saver, it goes to sleep (which it should) but then, I can't wake it up again. The monitor won't come on again or if it does, it is very, very faint. So faint an image that I can't see to actually turn it off so I must either unplug it or push the power button and I know that isn't good for it. It may be viral but I suspect it is probably the back light on the monitor going kaput. That sucks. I have good protection on it so I don't think it is a virus but one never knows. Those computer hackers are way ahead of any old lady like me who grew up remembering the first TV's and when we got color!

I try and keep it up to date, try and keep it cool, recently replaced the hard drive and got more memory but never the less, it is a machine and like humans, old machines break down. Cecil really needs a new computer and we were hoping and thinking that his would be the first one to be replaced. According to a friend "in the know", Cecil's processor sucks. Despite the fact that we added memory to his, it is incredibly slow, won't show videos without long pauses or skips and does the same when he plays games on it. He needs a new computer and his dream is a Mac but that is not in the budget, not right now anyway. And now this with the laptop. I do all my business on the thing. Pay the bills, correspondence, connections with people, do some of my jewelry business on it, write poetry on Studio Eight and I love the fact that I can take it with me, wherever I may go, including places with NO connectivity. But it is frail and old and now, sleepy. (It's funny that my son, the computer wonk, hates cars because they are machines that break down, are a mystery to him and yet, he works with these contraptions all the time that have just the same issues and are a mystery to me too! But, that is the way it is. A generational thing, I guess.)

And isn't it the truth that when it rains, it pours? You get my drift...it has been pouring a lot here lately with one thing after another and all of them requiring an influx of cash. Hard to be an artist without starving. Just a fact, Jack. I guess I will do some research (more time for something that isn't on the list and takes away from "studio time") and try and find out if this is fixable or if I need to tighten the belt more to replace the laptop. O well, that's the way the ball is bouncing. I just hope I can catch the damn ball without it floating down the creek. Like my Mom always reminds me, "this too will pass" and so it will. And after all, they are only machines and not life threatening or impairing and that is the most important thing. It is just frustrating and tries one's patience and I start thinking about a long, relaxing vacation from all this stuff but it is not in my cards at the moment. I just steal a few on the deck and watch the sky and the mountains and the birds and the dogs and breathe. All I can do.

Speaking of showers, the Leonid meteor shower is on Tuesday, very early morning as our planet passes thru the trail of the comet Temple-Tuttle. The debris left by that comet create the show which won't be really spectacular this year but will be worth it for those that want to see something amazing and beautiful. About 10 meteors will burn up in our atmosphere per hour. Don't you know that seeing a "shooting star" is a wonderful but brief moment where as a child, you made a wish and seeing a bunch of them puts one in another space and time. I remember the time up in Ruidoso when Mom, Dad and I went out to Cree Meadows, away from the trees, in the wee hours to get a view of the sight of the meteor shower. It was a magical night I will never forget and the conversation with my Dad was cosmic, truly. See the shower with someone you love and it will burn into your memory.

Well, that leads me to 2012 and the Mayan calendar that everyone is so het up about. Right now, in theaters everywhere, you can see all the destruction, mayhem, and pyrotechnics you want on the big screen. But is it a reason for fear and panic? Is the world gonna end? Are we at the end time? Apocalypse now? Revelations revealed? Pack your bags, head for Mars?
I don't think so. And if the Mayans were so smart, why did their civilization end? In fact, the remaining Mayans are pretty sick to death of all the hoopla about the calendar.

Civilizations come and go, have for thousands of years since the dawn of civilizations. Nothing lasts forever, not even this planet. We are all headed for the end, period. Something or someone will blow something up, a volcano will blow somewhere down the road, a flood will wipe out coastal areas, a earthquake will shake, a meteor will strike, the ice age will come, the ice age will go, things will die and fall into decay but that has always happened and always will. That is the nature of things. Extinction, mutation, the rise and fall of species is something that is a given. Like I tell Nate, when he asks me if he is going to die, "everything dies but it is okay Nate." You can't destroy matter, it is only transformed into something else and what that is, is beyond my comprehension but I refuse to live in fear, in a panic about a coming "disaster" that may or may not happen.

That is why I love Zen, Zen is living in the moment. This moment right NOW is all there is and one better make the most of it. Love, laugh, enjoy your moment. Forget about all those machinations (I am talking to myself here), leave your woes in your wake, go on adventures, live without fear for fear is paralyzing and takes all the fun out of life. And having fun, loving somebodies is really what it is all about for me. Laptops and microwaves are impermanent, but so are we and someday, we will be gone and just a memory. Make it a good memory, a cosmic memory. Look at the stars. They are born and die every day. But aren't they beautiful...

November 13th, 2009

Love and War

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All's quiet on the western front. I am a liar. All is not quiet. In fact, the west Texas wind is blowing like all get out and the wind chimes on the back deck are ringing constantly. And I am supposing that the weather has a great deal to do with how I am feeling physically. That and the fact that there has been just too much on my plate lately. I am really tired and can't breathe thru my nose and the body is aching. A front is moving through here and the dust is up and it is nippy, not cold, just nippy.

We did get some more stuff checked off the list yesterday. Cecil got his permission slip to his doctor who faxed it to the dental clinic so he is go for the tooth surgery next week. And we took care of the financial stuff for Texas Tech while we were there looking for the doctor so we are good for another year. We (read "I") have to do that for University Medical (formally Thomason), Texas Tech and Project Vida (which includes the dental clinic) every year to qualify for the aid. They are all due at about the same time every year (the fall) but once done, we are in like flint. At least we have medical care unlike some poor folks in this rich country we live in. I am grateful for that.

But my achy, sore knee and bad hip will have to wait until my Medicare kicks in just like Cecil's bad eye is waiting for his next year. I swear tho, since the Bush II administration fooled around with Medicare, it is screwy and almost impossible to understand. Kinda like when politicians fool around with tax codes (they say to make it simpler.) They are all liars. It never gets simpler. Never.

Make me think that all politicians should be required to actually live a month or two in public housing, have to fill out all the forms that people without health care do, apply for food stamps, stand in unemployment lines, work at a fast food place or wait tables, take care of three or four kids as a single parent, wait in a clinic for a doctor or a nurse for hours, be given a stipend of the equivalent of Social Security checks each month to live on and see what the poor folks actually do. But we all know that you have to be rich to get elected any more, the richer the better and most of those guys (they are still mostly "guys" and white guys at that) are raking in the dough at someone else's expense and on the payroll of some big business like insurance companies or getting some perk or kickback, etc. Speak of liars...I don't care what party or affiliation they are, they are liars and thieves mostly. Hard to find truth and honesty when you look to power.

I should be like my oldest son and ignore politics and politicians but they have such a hold on my life and its direction that what shenanagens they are up to makes a difference for me personally and it is true for all the downtrodden or less endowed in this so called "free" country. I wouldn't want to live any where else I don't believe, but that doesn't mean I can't speak my mind about injustice or just the hoops that I personally have to jump through just to get by. It gets exhausting and I can't even imagine what it must be like for some poor woman, uneducated and alone with five or six kids and no opportunity in sight. It is just like a politician to blame that poor woman for her plight but we live in a country where birth control is a religious issue, real education, especially sex education is frowned upon in our schools. It is all very screwy, really and makes absolutely no sense. Liars, thieves and self righteous, hypocritical bastards they are. And most of them can't keep their own pants zipped. I just wish they would zip their lips occasionally and listen and show some compassion instead of elevating their own self importance and worshiping the dollar in the name of Jesus H. Christ.

Wow! Don't know where that diatribe came from. Guess I found my soapbox this morning after dealing with so much of the bull I have had to deal with lately. I am glad to have this little journal to blow off steam. It helps me. Really. I feel better already.

And, the list is actually getting shorter. Most of the really pressing matters or really important stuff has been checked off, taken care of. But I am still tired and achy and I need some inspiration of the creative kind. Maybe I should get back into the studio and start organizing stuff again. Looking at those materials may be the panacea I need right now. Inspiration comes from a spark, a flash, a burst of energy that propels one to create. All I can be right now is hopeful that spark of energy will course through me and an idea or ideas will germinate and grow and blossom into something new and beautiful. First of all, I need to stop thinking about politicians and other assholes...and meditate on something more fruitful.

Have a creative day. Make it good and make it real. I wish you the energy, the spirit and the peace that creativity engenders and I wish the same for me.

Here are some pixs of our beautiful and creative Cactus Mary in some meditative, relaxed moments up in Ruidoso:



Mary unleashed, with her stacked rocks by the Rio Ruidoso.




Mary on the porch, taking in the warmth of the sun.

(See, I can actually take a good picture if I have a tricky camera like Mary's and her instruction!)

November 12th, 2009

Air Headed

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Seems I have no connectivity this morning.  Again.  We have more trouble with Time Warner and their monopoly in this town.  And you have no choice.  It is them or no cable.  I guess I could go with DSL but since I have to pay TW for the cable TV anyway...  So I am back to writing this journal on my word processor.  Hopefully, I will be able to post it today sometime (not that I have nothing else to do!)  Bummer.

We crammed a bunch of stuff in yesterday,  Nate Day.  Since we did our grocery shopping on Monday (good thing) I was able to do some chores (running around) early before Cec took Nate for his vids.  Nate went for a ride with me to the drug store and to pick up Mary's dogs as he was up and dressed early as usual.  Unfortunately Blockbuster is feeling the effects of the economic thingee and changed their hours so they don't even open until 11.  Try explaining that to Nate.  Downs don't get economic thingees, they want thingees to be as usual so they don't screw up his normal schedule.

Before I even go out of the house tho, I kept hearing this pitiful wailing (sounded like a cat in pain.)  I looked all over the place in the back yard and front and finally found the poor kitty next door in Elizabeth's yard.  She has two little kiddies and I didn't want them to have to deal with this cat tragedy, especially her daughter Isabella who is an animal lover and had already lost a puppy to Parvo.  So I went over and told them about the cat and that I could take it and at least make it more comfortable if it was dying.  And it was.  It had either been hit in the head by a car or it had the final stages of rabies.  More likely that it was hit by a car tho.  (Our street is really busy sometimes and not a place a kitty should be wandering about.)  Cecil helped me give the kitten some Rescue Remedy (great stuff!) and the kitty calmed down considerably after that.  At least it was not wailing pitiously.  It was obviously not going to make it and with Rabies as an option, we called animal control but the kitty died before he even got here.  Rest in peace kitty.  I am sorry your owners didn't take better care of you and keep you safe.

On a better note, we got a call from John and Cat and they were in town for a "quickie" to see Ona and Bob.  They wanted to meet us for lunch at L & J Cafe.  Because of Nate Day, we had to settle for a late lunch which turned out okay for them.  Ona joined us too but Bob wasn't feeling so great and couldn't come (hope you feel better soon buddy!)  We had a very nice visit, caught up on all the goings on in our lives and enjoyed a very nice border Mexican lunch.  (Lets face it, border Mexican is like no other Mexican food and is the best, as far as I am concerned.)  It was Yum.  The W's had just returned from the Balloon Fiesta in Albuquerque where they said they had a wonderful time and good flights.  They sent some really beautiful pictures which I will post IF I get some connectivity.

Then Cecil had dentist appointment for his broken tooth at 7 pm.  Because we go to the clinic (with our financial aid), the dentists work the clinic after hours some days of the week aside from their regular practice.  The waiting room was packed but I took a good book and we waited it out.  I knew with Cec's medical history and the blood thinners that it might be complicated and it was.  He has to get permission from his cardiologist to DC his blood thinners for a few days before they can do any tooth pulling.  So now, we have to go to Texas Tech and hunt down the doctor (this is not going to be easy, I assure you) and get him to sign a permission slip that the dentist gave Cec.  O well, I needed to go over there anyway to get some financial aid stuff done.  They wanted to schedule the tooth surgery on the same day we set up for Las Artistas.  No can do.  And the dentist is leaving for two weeks after that (or he won't be back to the clinic for two weeks or something.)  So it is very complicated, of course.  They will try and work it out for us but shoot!  Nothing is easy anymore.

And the puppies have to go to the vets to get their heartworm medication because they have to be weighed to get the pill.  Until they reach full size, they have to be weighed.  I will take them both as Mary has to work and she is also leaving town next week to Albuquerque for a book thingee (wish I could go and "potz around" while she works but it is right during Las Artistas again!)

Sheesh, I bet you are exhausted just reading this (hello?)  I am certainly a bit tired of this frantic pace and I still haven't got stuff done for the big show that I need to do.  No wonder that Cec and I are so tired by the time the year comes to a close!  I have big ideas that I am gonna get all this stuff done before the shows start again in the spring but after the pace of the summer, fall and winter seasons, I just wanna sleep and lay about like a lizard and read a good book or two.

It is almost 5 so I am gonna go and see if Cec can get us some connectivity.  I wish you peace.  I need some of that myself.

Connectivity is back.  Here are some pix by Cathy of the Balloon Fiesta and John's balloon:

 





November 11th, 2009

Hey, get moving!

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This morning I feel like I am getting bogged down with all the stuff that needs to be done.  It seems like I never have time or energy in the studio because of all the extraneous paper work, calls, doctor visits, forms, ect. and other stuff that clutter my table and my mind.  Doesn't leave much room for creativity.  Not a whit.

Besides not going to see the Red Elvises last night (see The Late News post below), the microwave bit the dust and now we need to replace that.  Another bother actually and another expense.  I guess it was a good thing we didn't spend the monies on the show because Nate can't operate without a microwave.  (The only thing I use it for is popcorn and to reheat my coffee otherwise, I would say, good riddance.)  But Nate uses it all the time for his solo dining.  He wanted it last night for re-heating his "taters and graven" but no go, no heat, nada.  And we need to consider his needs when we replace it, as he will be the operator mainly.  Simple and easy will have to fit the bill. 

Medicare is looming too for Cecil and he needs to call them to get some answers to some pertinent questions.  He doesn't seem too concerned (unlike me for he needs that eye taken care of next year when it kicks in) as he "accidently" threw all the stuff away that they sent and I gave him to read, including his Medicare Card, into the recycle bin.  Fortunately, he (and I) were able to fish it all out again but that shows you the level of his concern.  Someone has to be on top of it all and what needs doing and I am tired (right now) of being that someone.

Okay, I am grousing this morning and I admit it but can you blame me?  So much stuff to do, to take care of and the days right now are beautiful, the weather is perfect and I am stuck doing "shit work" instead of outside enjoying nature where I want to be.  Well, at least the dogs and my health issues mean I can take a walk every day and that is nice.  But I come back to the piles, the undone on the table and get bogged down again.  I sure needed to go dancing last night but that didn't happen.

Actually Cecil tried to make it up to me last night with a nice dinner and a glass of wine but I am the whine right now.  I did enjoy the dinner and watched "V", the second episode.  It was okay but I am probably going back to watching NCIS and Mark.  I did watch the LA version of NCIS  which was really good too.  Now isn't this all trite but entertainment is important to me.  I need the diversion sometimes.

Today, Time Warner (after another phone call from Cec) is supposed to come out and replace the lines in the alley.  They are all liars so that will remain to be seen.  Besides that, because I can never get aholt of my clinic, even to make appointments (they never call back) I had to go down there and actually ask them for lab and office visit appointments in December.  And it is time again to go through and apply for the aid from Texas Tech where Cecil goes for his office visits as that expires at the end of the month.  And the dogs need their heart guard pills which entails a visit to the vet because Chang is still a puppy and growing so they can't give me his pill without weighing him.  And the biggest show of the year is coming up next week and am I ready?  No, not even close and because the photo printer probably needs a new print head and not working, Cecil is not ready either and had to order prints from Kodak (what a racket.)  And the building guy in Ruidoso needs calling about the regulations for the toilet and have him send them to me.  And Cecil has a broken tooth which needs at least two visits to the dentist, one to access the damage and another to deal with it.

I could go on...  I won't.  Right now, this sucks.  I am tired of just thinking about what needs doing.  Life should be simple.  It is not, simply put.  Between microwaves, cable lines, dog pills, medical forms, teeth issues, medicare, doctor visits, big show, screwy printer, tax forms...I am needing a vacation from it all and I just got back from dreaded sign and toilet issues the last time I tried to get away.  

And to top it off, I can't dance.  Well, grousing about it all lets me let off some steam and at least I can do that here.  Sorry to my readers (if I actually have a few) but I needed to get it out today so I can move on...  So, moving on now.

November 10th, 2009

The Late News

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Bad news (for me.)  It looks like no concert tonight, no Red Elvises, no Igor, nope, none.  It seems that the show doesn't even start here until 10 pm (that's like midnight in SC)  And because Mary has to work tomorrow and Cecil is asleep (usually) by then (I am usually out by 9), it ain't gonna happen.  I am not sure why they don't start earlier.  I was thinking they might at least start the show by 9 and that would be pushing it for us.  But 10 is way too late for us old fogies.  Darn.  Mary and Cec can not or will not go so I will not either...  Pffftttt. 

"All We Need is Love!"

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Last night Cecil and I, instead of watching our regular CSI Miami, watched a documentary on Frontline about the Beatles (The Beatles and the Cold War) and their impact in U.S.S.R. and how those boys from Liverpool actually were, more than any other factor, the cause of the fall of communism and the restrictive regime that ruled that country.  Leslie Woodhead, who made the film, had originally filmed (secretly) the Beatles in the Cavern Club before their incredible rise to fame in the West.

It was absolutely riveting, to see that this music had such an impact on that world where even owning a Beatles record was a punishable event, where a black market started to rise and Beatles music was passed underground, where that very music caused a whole generation of Russians to question the government that controlled every aspect of their lives.

It is true that Gorbachev had a huge impact on the dissolution of the U.S.S.R. but it was the music of the Beatles and the underground fans that truly made those young people rise up and demand their freedom.  Amazing, really and I had no idea.  I was there in that generation.  I remember the Beatles coming to the U.S.A. and seeing them the first time on the Ed Sullivan Show.  I bought their first records and danced in the twins' basement to all of them.  But I never, ever knew what a enormous difference they made to a peoples that could never even witness a show or buy an album or go to a concert because the Beatles were banned and their music was labeled pollution.  (Of course, don't forget that our own free country had John Lennon on the "subversive list" and tried to label him as a "communist" or something, throw him out and all kinds of horrible persecution to him and his family.  But that is another story...)

Kids in Russia who where caught with long hair or electric guitars were grabbed off the street and their heads shaved or worse.  But the underground "Beatles virus" thrived and they invented unique ways of making recordings of their favorite songs like using x-ray film and cutting it into rounds to record the records on.  I had no idea that the Beatles were much more important to those kids than they ever were to us in free western countries.  And believe me, they were important to us all for they represented freedom of expression and isn't that what it is all about?  If you get the chance, watch this film.  It will absolutely blow your mind.  Like Cecil has said many times, "Music is the universal language" and it can even make a bigger difference than any weapon known to man.

Speaking of Russians, the Red Elvises are in El Paso tonight!  This is a must see event for me and besides, I doubt if my brother would forgive me if I didn't go see them.  I have my Red Elvises tee shirt all washed and ready.  I am dragging Mary to the event, telling her she has no choice (she doesn't.)  I wish all my friends would avail themselves of this opportunity.  The band is not just Russian, it is a mix of cultures (Puerto Rican, Israeli, etc.) with Igor, the lead singer and guitarist at the helm.  He is indescribable, honestly and can really wail.  I flew all the way to South Carolina to see them with my family and I ain't gonna miss this opportunity since they are right here at home. Igor actually experienced the repression of the Soviets when he was growing up and left that country to express his unique form of music.

In fact, Cecil has a broken tooth and needs an extraction as he cannot chew and the dental clinic could get him in tonight but he has chosen to wait until tomorrow just so we can see the band.  He will suffer for art!

Lots of stuff to do today.  The list never gets any shorter and sometimes (but not always) I manage to keep up.  One thing at a time but I never forget to have a good time.  Life is too damn short to be miserable and if you are miserable, go see a band, play some good music (subjective subject of course) and have a beer and a toast to the Beatles who made such a big difference in this ole world to millions of young people.  Cheers! 

November 9th, 2009

The Skinny Story

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Back in the saddle again.  And here is the straight skinny from the horse's mouth (or as straight as I can get it second hand from Cec) about the toilet situation.

Cecil called our friend Bill in Ruidoso (the builder) yesterday to find out what the new regs were concerning houses, toilets, etc.  Seems that Ruidoso has been so lax in their building laws and codes that the federal government finally stepped in.  Especially after the horrible floods that wiped out so many places along the river, the lack of decent city water facilities, the fire dangers, homes built with no restrictions what so ever and the list could go on.   Also Ruidoso was required to build a new water treatment facility at the hefty cost of 38 million and they needed to make up those monies somewhere.

Now the new guy who is now the Building Official is the fellow that left the card (and the dreaded sign) on our place.  He took this job and was bombarded from all sides.  The city, the feds and the people in Ruidoso, some of whom are really irate at the new laws and requirements.  And some of the new laws and codes are really ridiculous and such a turn around from the lax attitude in the past so that is understandable.  Most of the old places up there are not up to code and haven't been since they were hand built back in the olden days, years and years ago.

For example, Cecil had talked to a vendor at the Aspenfest that used to live in Ruidoso, born and raised in Ruidoso, and he finally gave up when he went to build on his property and met the dreaded new codes.  The expense and the hoop jumping were excessive and so he sold his place and moved to Hondo.  End of that story.  Bill said that he hasn't built anything in Ruidoso in the past three years because of those very restrictive codes.  He builds in Alto and the surrounding areas but not Ruidoso, no sirree.

So to start with, it looks like we are basically screwed.  The codes and requirements are being enforced in force.  All houses must be brought up to code.  Very few things are "grandfathered" in.  New septic tanks must be approved by the Environmental Board and have to meet strict requirements.  Hooking up to the city water system is $4,000 just to tie in, never mind the expense of building the toilet facilities, the plans have to go through their approval system and the water bill runs about $92 a month to start with.  Even if you don't use the water for most of the year, you have to pay that much for it.  I never wanted to put water in, in the first place, as we basically just camp up there a couple of times a year, don't plan on moving there and once you do put water in, the tax rate skyrockets too.   So water was never a consideration of mine.  I don't mind hauling in the drinking and washing water at all.  If we need a shower, we can go over to John and Robyn's place.    

And I surely doubt that our septic system would be approved, even tho we have a tank.  After talking to my Mom yesterday, she was doubtful too as the leach field runs right down the hill to the creek.  So an outhouse is out.  New septic systems are around $10,000 just for the tanks.  Whew boy!

With a water hook-up and bathroom or an outhouse pretty much out of the picture, we are left with one solution, a composting toilet.  Now actually, this is something I have considered, was eventually wanting to do because I like the whole idea of it.  It is environmentally sound, the systems are simple and you can put it almost anywhere as it is compact (the new ones are) and doable in our situation.  Venting would have to be done through the roof as compost needs air to work but in the second room of ours, the roof is not all that high.  I am sure there are some things we have not thought about or requirements that we don't know about but something will have to be done or our place up there will just be useless and we won't be able to stay there ever again.  I don't like the idea of that, period.

Cecil did ask Bill about property values up there if we decided to sell it and Bill said, rock bottom pretty much, with all the restrictions.  And, I am not sure why Cecil even asked because even if I could never ever go inside my little place up there, I wouldn't sell it.  (Never say never Soo Lee!)  It is not even a consideration of mine and that property is in my name!  My parents gave it to me and I have deep emotional ties there so selling it would be like ripping out my heart.  No way Jose!  It is one of the prettiest properties on that hill and it is right on the creek.  Unless I get in really dire straights, I want to leave that to my son and he can sell it if he wants but I would have to be dead first.  But the truth is, one never knows what the future may hold.  I just hope it never comes to me having to sell my beloved little play house in the woods.

A composting toilet may be in our future tho, if we can swing it.  I need to do some more research on it.  The last time I checked (within this year) they ran at the cheapest, around $2000 bucks and that may be doable for us.  Lots of beans will be on the table but I like beans.  I know how to pinch a penny or pick one up off the street.  Hey, I can make a sign for Cec and he could sit on the street corner of Dyer and Monroe!  Just kiddin' folks but we will manage, I believe.  I just need to put it out in the universe that I want a composting toilet and something will happen, I am sure.  And before we even purchase one, we need to talk to the Environmental Board guy, Jack King (at least we have a name now) and see what the requirements are, what the plans entail, what permits we need and how expensive all that is gonna be.  Another few hoops to jump through but I am getting pretty good at jumping through the hoops and avoiding the pitfalls. 

Hey, wish me luck and give me your good vibes.  I am gonna need them.

Here are a few pixs that Mary took on our little jaunt to Ruidoso.  You can tell, I had a glorious time despite the toilet dispute.

 

Our little cabin at Rainbow Lakes and my parade wave.

 

Frida and Chang inside the cabin waiting for the "go" signal.

 

Pack of wild dogs in the woods near our little cabin at the Lakes.  Notice Frida is chewing on grass.  Mary should have named her "Elsie" as she eats more grass than a cow.

 

Me and my beautiful boy Chang Lee at the Rio Ruidoso.

November 8th, 2009

Toilet Talk

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Today (Saturday, Nov. 7), I am writing the journal from my word processor because I am out in the woods and have no connectivity.  The computer was brought along tho, just so I could write at an ungodly hour that no other soul would be awake.  That is when I like to write, an ungodly hour, because I am awake!  The word processor will do.

Mary and I had a nice leisurely drive up to the mountains.  Not knowing what to expect when I got there because of my last experience with the sign on the cabin declaring it to be UNSAFE, I was a bit apprehensive when I arrived.  And there it was.  The dreaded sign.  But this time a business card was stapled right next to it.  We went ahead and unpacked but I worried and wondered what the problem must be, why o why is my place unsafe?  It didn't look unsafe to me or Mary.  Looked great, the yard all cleaned up, the bird tape for the woodpeckers still dangling from the roof line, no dead trees about to fall.  All looked well, inside and out.  Nothing I could see.

So Mary thought I should call the guy on the business card to find out what was going on.  I tried calling from my place after we unloaded the van but guess what?  No connectivity.  So after some thought, I decided it would be better to call Cec and have him call from our house in El Paso.  I didn't want the guy to know I was in the posted UNSAFE place and had moved in.  Mary drove us back out of the canyon so I could make a call.  Then Cecil called Shawn (the guy) and found out exactly why they keep posting those signs on our place.

Well, it looks like there is now a law in Ruidoso that you can't have a home that doesn't have a toilet, not even a porta-potty.  That's screwy but it is now the law.  We have to either put in water and a toilet or put in a composting toilet or an outhouse connected to a septic tank.  We have a septic tank and even if you empty the porta-potty into it, it doesn't count.  You have to have some sort of toilet, it seems and until that is done, we can't use our cabin.  If we do, we face a big fine because it is posted.  That's shitty.  

Now, I have looked into the composting toilets and those suckers are really expensive and building an outhouse is gonna be the same.  It seems this is a way of increasing their tax rolls, requirements that are actually improvements that up the taxes.  Used to be in this town you could build and do what you wanted on your property but that has all changed.  Our next door neighbor who bought my parents friend's house says that the city is now requiring them to bring the house up to code.  This is a big expense for that young couple!  They moved here from Aspen because they thought Ruidoso was much less "developed and uppity."  Humm, maybe not.

Most of the new laws are probably justified or needed to keep stuff from happening willy-nilly and people just throwing up anything they want to but I sure don't understand this one.  I am gonna ask Cecil to call the guy back and have him send us the requirements.  He told Cec that the environmental board would have to see what we do and then approve it (or not.)

Dad gum.  I sure didn't expect this.  I thought maybe a tree was too close to the cabin or something easily fixable needed to be done.  I sure didn't think I would have to put in a toilet for a place we only use a few times a year for weekends.  Seems silly to me, not to mention the expense.

Anyway, it didn't seem a good idea that we should stay there, considering the hefty fine and all.  Mary and I drove downtown to see if Robyn knew of any places we could rent for the night, reasonably, and that allowed dogs.  We got the name of a couple of places, thanks to Robyn and friends and set out to check them out.  

The first place was a real dump, and look pretty much unkempt.  Now, I am not real particular (o yeah?) because we decided only to try and stay one night because of the expense but this sure didn't look appealing.  It was on the main road, no trees or nothing that spoke of the mountains and why we were up here and that was besides the run-down appearance.  Perhaps too cheap.

The next place was on the road to the Inn of the Mountain Gods at Rainbow Lake.  They have little cabins there, cedar siding and with bathroom (toilet!), a shower, a refrigerator, sink, dishes, cable TV and a full sized bed and a bunkbed.  Plus, it was off the road, backed up against the National Forest where we could walk the dogs.  I didn't hesitate even tho it was $20 more that the other place.  It was neat, clean and in a pretty location.  Location (and the view)  is everything! 

The room is only 12 by 12 but we all can squeeze in comfortably, kind of.  Not as comfortable as my place but with more amenities for sure.  Really cute too and did I say clean?  Immaculate.  We put some dog blankets on the lower bunk, the dog crate for Frida went up there too and Mary slept on the top bunk.  Shhh!  She is still sleeping as I write this.  I, because there is no climbing up bunk bed ladders in my future, got the full sized bed where I could easily get up and down all night.  Poor Mary had to climb up and down the ladder but she would have to do that at our place too.  At least she had a toilet, a real toilet!  

The puppies have been wonderful, absolutely.  Real troppers those two.  They have been quiet and obeyed all the rules.  Nice to have such well behaved dogs with you instead of some of the dogs I usually see, yapping and running and pulling and jumping and acting like untrained dogs do.  All the work we have done with Chang and Frida has paid off.  Chang only has one problem.  He won't pee when he is on the leash.  Now I don't know what that is all about but he will hold it and hold it until I let him off the leash and then he goes.  Silly boy.  

When we took them downtown to talk to Robyn they were great.  Many of the shop owners here are very dog friendly as many tourists and visitors bring their dogs.  So dogs are actually allowed in many of the stores.  Our kids just were lovely, friendly and didn't do anything that a young dog is prone to do.  I was a proud Mama, Nanny.  Not bad to use our two wonderful and sweet dogs to give Pit Bulls a good rep.  They were goodwill ambassadors.

Today, we plan on going for a hike up in the forest nearby, relax a bit and then pack up again and take a tour of the area, possibly visit the river, maybe go for a walk downtown again and just play it by ear.  It will be a shorter trip than expected but it was and still is an adventure.

Not looking forward to dealing with the toilet issue but something must be done if I ever want to use my place up here again.  That sign will stay there until we do and I hate that.  

Well, that's the poop.


Note:  I am back home, copying and pasting this on my journal.  Despite the toilet issue, we had a really good time and the weather and the mountains were beautiful!  Our little cabin out at the Rainbow Lakes was really nice as was the gal at the front desk.  She was very sympathetic to our problem with the toilet issue.  Robyn made the remark that, "what if you pitch a tent next to the place, can you use a porta-potty then?"  Good question.  They don't require campers to have an outhouse or a composting toilet.  Just a bucket will do.  So what is the deal?  Baffling. 

Today, I think Cec is gonna call some friends up there (he is a builder) and see what exactly is going on and what we should do.  On Monday, he is going to call Shawn (our nemesis, but was really nice on the phone Cec said..."I want to work with you folks to help you out"  so we will see) and have him send us a copy of the exact ordinance.  Like I said, it is baffling.  Not sure what we can afford to do or what exactly we have to do.  Any new addition, construction, or whatever is done, except to repair an existing porch or something, has to have all kinds of permits, approvals, yadda, yadda.  Looks like the "rent" is going up with the income coming down.

I plan on watching the race today, catching up on some paperwork, pay bills and first, taking a walk with Mary and the dogs.  I envy most dogs, life is easy and you surely don't need a toilet...just a poopie bag, a good owner who will clean up after you and you're set for life. 

November 5th, 2009

Get Ready

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I have actually been up for a long time, since 4 or so.  The dogs are always ready to go out, no matter what time I get up.  That milk bone has seductive taste and they each get one (or a portion of one) every morning as I let them out the door. 

I have both of Mary's dogs right now as she is taking a mini-sabatical from doggies, especially Frida the wriggler and too enthused one.  When I went to open the door this morning, Frida surged ahead (like she isn't supposed to do) and I quickly closed the door again to make them (her) wait until I said it was "okay."  Unfortunately for Frida, she already had her head out the door when I closed it again so she got her neck a bit mashed, peed on the floor and yelped loudly.  Good thing her head is well attached to her body or I would be spending the morning explaining to Mary why her dog was headless.  Frida is always quite contrite but it never quells her enthusiasm (not do I want to as she is full of life.)  She seems no worse for wear and proceeded to run wildly about the yard then jump on Yogi who was in no mood for puppy antics that early in the morning.  None of us were, well, except for Frida. 

Right now they are all fast asleep, scattered about with Chang and Frida in the doggie chair, Zeno in my chair (he is the only one allowed in my chair) and the Yog on the floor. They like getting up early for the milk bones but soon go back to sleep while I type away.  Dogs and children are very cute when they are sleeping...

Today is Get Ready To Leave Town Day.  Did you know that?  Yep, it is.  Which means I need to wash some clothes, pack the items on the list (of course there is a list!) and cogitate on what I may have forgotten to put on the list.  I went over my list with Mary last night on the phone, as requested, so perhaps she could remember what it is that she should take.  Logistics.  Planning.  A good trip requires both but since we are not going out into the wilderness, and stores are close by, a forgotten item is not all that important.  I guess a list isn't either but I find it difficult to manage without my list as I have been making them all my life (or almost all.)  Things are checked off as they are packed, things are added as I remember them.  It doesn't mean that I don't forget things, I do but the list at least makes sure I don't forget the really, really important stuff like my meds on the counter or my phone jack on the sunporch so I can be in touch with home base.

The last time Mary and I trekked out of town to the mountains for a relaxing weekend away it didn't turn out so relaxing for either of us.  That was the weekend that I discovered the guy next door had cut down the old ponderosas and that pretty much ruined it for me.  Poor Mary had to suffer my suffering too.  Hopefully, that sort of thing won't happen this weekend and all will be nice and quiet and relaxing but of course, one never knows.  I just hope that I can be calm, no matter what happens.  I have a bit of apprehension just because of the DO NOT ENTER sign that was on the bunkhouse when Cec and I were up there.  But, no matter what, I plan on an adventure and a good time.

We are also taking the puppies with us this time which may or may not be a good idea.  I am sure it will be a good experience for them but that remains to be seen if it is a good idea for us. It is better than leaving them here with Cecil as he would either ignore them and their antics (and no telling what they would get up to) or lose patience with them and yell (that is not good either) and besides, I have raised Nathan so I have lots of patience in reserve although even that reaches its end eventually, especially if I am not feeling well.  But I feel great and am looking forward to the nip of the mountain air and the smell of the pines.  The Yog and Zeno will stay here with Cecil and Nate and that suits them all just fine.  They know the routine.

Today also Blake Bros. is in town and Cec and I need to go see them and get some silver findings.  It is much easier to get them here than in Tucson where you have to deal with crowds of people and all that entails.  Better to sit and go through the stuff here without all the pushing and shoving in the Blake tent there.  

I will be out of the loop for a bit as I don't plan on returning until Monday of next week and the laptop will stay here.  See you on the flip side. 

November 4th, 2009

Discrimination Damnation

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Okay, I am on my soapbox again this morning so you are forewarned. 

We live in a free society (or so we think) that frowns mostly upon profiling, racist actions, and stereotyping of individuals.  (Ideally of course, for we as a society have a long way to go in really reaching those lofty goals.)  I know people that wouldn't think of making racist remarks or lumping folks that are different into one catagory or another but those same people will lump a breed of dog, based on stereotypes and misinformation, into a bundle that proclaims all pit bulls are vicious or untrustworthy or just plain ole mean.  Never mind allowing them in society or most especially around our precious children for they might attack them and kill them. 

Right now, breed specific legislation is in effect in many places, cities, towns, states that prohibit people from owning the American Pit Bull Terrier or make homeowners carry extra insurance if you own such a breed.  And why?  I have thought long and hard about this.  I too have heard the horror stories about pit bulls, seen the graphic images of dog fighting and mostly bought into the stereotype myself once.  The media makes sure of that but did you hear the story about the Pomeranian that killed a 6 mo. old baby?  Probably not but it's true.  Should we ban Pomeranians?  Of course not. 

Do you believe that all Arabs are terrorists?  All Mexicans are lazy?  All Blacks are stupid?  If you do, you are racist and ignorant because you are stereotyping these different peoples according to what you have been taught to believe or what someone has told you or you "think" you know.  Some people are terrorists or lazy or stupid but it doesn't apply just to a specific race.  Those things can apply to any race or peoples.  

It is a fact that more people are killed by people than by dogs.  More people are killed by car accidents than by dogs.  More people are killed by guns, knives, bombs, etc, than by dogs.  Should we ban people or cars or guns specifically because we might get injured or killed?  I don't think so.  I think we should use our common sense. 

And what is the likelyhood that a pit bull will bite you or someone you love?  Not very likely, even if you are the owner of such a dog.  In all probability, your poodle or yorkie is more likely to bite you or your children than your pit.  And that is a fact.  Labrador Retrievers cause more facial injuries from bites than any other dog type and that is what is considered one of the soft mouth, sweet breeds of dogs.  Should we ban Labs?

Hysteria and paranoia is an easy thing to engender in people.  We tend to get hysterical or fearful because of misinformation propagated by folks that think or buy into stereotypes about anything.  And because we live in an age where word travels fast and misinformation can be bandied about at the speed of light and only later do we find out the truth and by that time, no one cares about the truth.  We tend to only want to hear the sensational, even if it is not the true story.  That's usually all it takes for us to form an opinion and buy into a stereotype about something.  And, sad thing is, you can usually find someone out there that will agree with your biases and propagate your stereotypes with the intent of fostering hatred and fear about anyone different or misunderstood.

And what is the truth about pit bulls?  Are they vicious?  Can your formally gentle and sweet pet turn on you in an instant?  Here is an article from the New Yorker about the American Temperament Society and the tests they did on dog breeds and their conclusions about the American Pit Bull Terrier specifically:

A Georgia-based group called the American Temperament Test Society has put twenty-five thousand dogs through a ten-part standardized drill designed to assess a dog's stability, shyness, aggressiveness, and friendliness in the company of people. A handler takes a dog on a six-foot lead and judges its reaction to stimuli such as gunshots, an umbrella opening, and a weirdly dressed stranger approaching in a threatening way. Eighty-four per cent of the pit bulls that have been given the test have passed, which ranks pit bulls ahead of beagles, Airedales, bearded collies, and all but one variety of dachshund. "We have tested somewhere around a thousand pit-bull-type dogs," Carl Herkstroeter, the president of the A.T.T.S., says. "I've tested half of them. And of the number I've tested I have disqualified one pit bull because of aggressive tendencies. They have done extremely well. They have a good temperament. They are very good with children." It can even be argued that the same traits that make the pit bull so aggressive toward other dogs are what make it so nice to humans. "There are a lot of pit bulls these days who are licensed therapy dogs," the writer Vicki Hearne points out. "Their stability and resoluteness make them excellent for work with people who might not like a more bouncy, flibbertigibbet sort of dog. When pit bulls set out to provide comfort, they are as resolute as they are when they fight, but what they are resolute about is being gentle. And, because they are fearless, they can be gentle with anybody."

Then which are the pit bulls that get into trouble? "The ones that the legislation is geared toward have aggressive tendencies that are either bred in by the breeder, trained in by the trainer, or reinforced in by the owner," Herkstroeter says. A mean pit bull is a dog that has been turned mean, by selective breeding, by being cross-bred with a bigger, human-aggressive breed like German shepherds or Rottweilers, or by being conditioned in such a way that it begins to express hostility to human beings. A pit bull is dangerous to people, then, not to the extent that it expresses its essential pit bullness but to the extent that it deviates from it. A pit-bull ban is a generalization about a generalization about a trait that is not, in fact, general. That's a category problem.

What is the real problem with any dog that is aggressive?  People.  People that are abusive or don't socialize their dogs from an early age.  Dogs, and cats, are prey seeking species and any prey seeking species that we consider a pet can be aggressive if not properly trained or treated with kindness.

Dog specific legislation and requirements on homeowners who have Pit Bulls is racist, profiling, stereotypical and just plain wrong and ignorant to boot.  If you are one of those that "think" Pits are more dangerous than any other breed of dog, you have bought into the hysteria and fear that the media and hype wants you to.  

Any owner of a big dog that is capable of doing damage with a bite should be informed and conscious of how they raise that dog.  My Rhodesian Ridgeback/Boxer Yogi scares the pee-waddling out of people because he is big and powerful looking.  And if he wanted to, he could probably inflict a lot of damage with his powerful jaws but he won't, he doesn't.  He is as gentle as a lamb but that doesn't keep people from crossing the street when we are walking just to avoid that big ole dog.  Because he looks a certain way, because he is a powerful breed, because of stereotyping, people assume he is capable of biting or injuring them.  My Pit Bull Chang loves people and he doesn't discriminate if they are children, he loves them all.  Caution is fine but hysteria is not.  

I'm done... 

November 3rd, 2009

Respect

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SooZ slept in this morning (well, not really.)  I awoke around 2 am as I went to sleep really early last night and missed most of CSI Miami.  In fact, I remember nada about it.  I lay down on my bed, thinking I would watch the shows and next thing I know, it is dark and Cec is snoring.  Happens all the time. 

Once I got up at 2 and did my walk to the bathroom, I clambered back into the warm sheets and didn't wake again until 4:30 and by that time, the dogs thought they needed to go out.  Actually, the dogs thought they needed the big milk bones I give them in the morning.  Dogs are as habitual as Downs' kids.  They love their routines.  I am the guilty one that wakes up so durn early and so they think that getting up at the wee hours is just fine and dandy.

Yesterday, Cecil and I had to go return Nate's movies so I had decided I would like to go to the Ft. Bliss Cemetery to honor our parents on Dia de Los Muertos.  We stopped by Albertson's and I picked up some flowers, wondering what I would use for vases but thinking again (I gotta stop that thinking stuff) that Bliss must have some sort of thingee for that. 

They are building a new freeway exchange for Bliss right outside the cemetery which is rather disconcerting actually.  But progress can't be stopped, especially when it is deemed absolutely necessary for the base expansion, can it?  And once you are inside the cemetery itself, you hardly notice the ugly bones of the freeway. 

The National Cemetery has taken up all the grass that used to be there and replaced it with chat (a very fine gravel) and the new area where the cremated remains are buried is planted with native species of trees and plants mostly.  There was a big hue and cry over the grass removal (at the time) but I think it looks just fine and is oh so much more practical in the desert.  The grounds are immaculate and caretakers are always running around cleaning and pruning and stuff.  The new area where my Dad's marker is, is absolutely beautiful and the orange, red and yellow lantana's (those colors all on one plant!) and the purple sages were still in bloom.  Many different kinds of trees have been planted too, some I didn't even recognize but all were in tip top shape and health.

Now the burials are not held at the grave sites but at ceremonial type gazebos which are quite nice also.  They are held very regularly unfortunately as many of the young boys in the current conflicts are from our area or their families wanted them to be interred at Bliss.  And, like my Dad, anyone that has served his country in any service can be buried there.  It is a beautiful resting place, I believe and I am glad I can go there and pay my respects.

Many people were out there yesterday, putting flowers at the headstones to mark the Day of the Dead.  I know right where my Dad's stone is and where Bernie and Cecil, Sr. are so they were fairly easy to find.  The gal (actually an officer) in the office told me that bins all around the grounds held vases that were for the families to use.  That was cool!  Just like I thought. 

Cecil also wanted to visit his old buddy Dennis (a wonderful cartoonist and artist), who died too young of heart disease so we had to look him up as we had only visited his stone once before (on Memorial Day) and were not too sure where he was.  Their system is so efficient and makes it easy to find whom you are looking for.

We found Cecil, Sr. and Bernie first as they are in the old part of the cemetery.  Just a short walk down the road from the office.  It is always disconcerting to see Cecil's name on the headstone and the first time we visited (years and years ago) it really took my breath away.  Bernie's name is on the opposite side as that is how they honor the spouses.  All we had to cut the flower stems (oops, forgot to think about that) was a little knife that Cec has on his keychain, but it worked just fine with some fiddlin' around.

My Dad's headstone is in the new section which is strictly for cremations.  The stones are much closer together but Dad's for some strange reason has no one behind him and all the others do.  I told Cecil that Dad liked a big back yard.  Right next to his stone is a beautiful young tree and some bushes as his is almost on the corner of that section.  After we placed the flowers I burst into tears as I usually do when we visit there (I am his big baby, ya know) but just then, a huge jackrabbit burst from the bushes and hopped off.  It was comical and made both Cecil and I laugh and Cec turned to Dad's headstone and said, "That was his way of telling you it is okay."  And so it is. 

 

 

 

 

You can see them working on the freeway behind Dennis's headstone in the background.
 

Unfortunately, Cecil's Dad died right after Cec went into boot camp for the Navy.  Cec was only 20 years old at the time and really never had the chance to know his Dad as a man.  I am lucky, I had the good fortune of knowing what a great man my Dad was and I am glad Cecil got to know him too.  He tells some stories of Dad and him drinking a toddy late at night in the cabin and bullshitting about most anything.  I know my Dad liked Cec and that meant a lot to him.  He was a man that engendered respect.  

Hey, respect your elders, honor your fathers and mothers and don't forget to tell your loved ones you love them.  And today make it a good day.
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